Depression run inside of me
My constant fear and anxiety
I cannot pinpoint the reasons
Why I dont feel like part of society
And I could try to take a look inside to figure out why
I feel so hurt, why I lack self worth, why my lifes
been pain since the day of my birth
And I still feel worse when the pain returns
Too many things in my mind I can't figure out
All the times you would yell cuss each other out
You don't care about the demons in my mind
Cuz you had your own demons in you all this time
And you never asked why my b *tches know smiles
Why I ran for miles
Why I changed my style
Why I look so sad
Why I get so mad
Why I want it all to end I don't make pretend
Lost my cousin to the drugs, he was 15
But all the drugs the cool kids mixing
I don't care about my friends
Cuz the main thing
Is that I do the right thing
Keep my name clean
And keep my mind clean
Make peace with my damn anxiety
No way I make it back to sobriety
Cuz all the drugs will heal the pain inside of me
I'm breaking down (breaking down)
Can't figure out (can't figure out)
Can't take away the pain
I'm borderline insane
l'm borderline insane
l'm borderline insane
I can never focus on the sh*t that works
If you give me 50 dollars for my verse
l'll make it work
But I'll write a f* cking lie
Cuz the truth is all that hurts
I don't think its a surpise
All my problems are the worst
Triple seven on my wrist
But it dont mean jack sh*t
Number of the angel, I f* ckin thought they exist
Just wanna live 2020
Ain't that sh*t
Locked in my room when l'm bout to go bad, shit
I wish I could say it to light
Age 17, thought I wanted to die
But I cannot lie
Even when I do try to work
From my heart to the end of my life
Work from my heart to the end of my life
Work from my heart to the end of my life
I'm breaking down (breaking down)
Can't figure out (can't figure out)
Can't take away the pain
l'm borderline insane
